TINAAA

(Picture thanks to ASH!)

I'm so incredibly happy and thankful for this guy. He's my best friend in the world and I can't imagine life without him. I guess being around his family this weekend and Rob and Jen, and Ash and Garrett and Parkie made me realize that I'm so ready to settle down and start my life with him. I mean, I think I've known for a while that this was coming but I really feel READY. I'm so so SO looking forward to coming home to him and OUR house and our life. And to traveling and starting a family and getting more dogs (yes please!). And to just settling down. I feel really over the going out scene.. I don't really see the point in it anymore and I guess I just want to grow up and start the rest of my life. I want to come home at night and have a glass of wine and cook dinner and watch the history channel with my dog and my boyfriend and just be boring. I'm so happy being boring!

On the subject of starting.. I start personal training tomorrow and I have a feeling I'm going to get my butt KICKED. We did 15 minutes of tests last week and I could barely laugh without shooting pains in my abs. I'm nervous! I'm ready to get serious about this modeling and getting in shape. I'm giving myself until December down here.. And if things haven't started picking up than I'm moving home. I just feel like that's a good last shot at everything.. Then I'll be able to say that I really focused and tried and gave it my all. I think it's going to be a lot harder than I'm expecting, though. I wish Ian would just move here. Problems solved! I wish it was that easy..